BAD MEMORY ! NO ! FAIL memory. ..

I've always known that I have bad memory (given that I freaking bothered to copy/ attempt to memorize the stupid chemistry notes 3 times over in JC but yet still FAIL or like 50/50, I learnt then that understanding is better than just blindly memorizing . . . I mean, I can have the book in my head but what's the use if I do not know which page to flip to)

Then there are occasions when friends come up to me and tell me "hey, last year etc. etc. etc. we talked about this at which place", my friend could even tell me where he was when I called, what we talked about and more !

When does it really get bad ? This morning, my OC asked me something with regards to work and I couldn't remember jack sh*t ! I couldn't even remember vital information which would save my ass from embarrassment/ trouble . .. . so all I could do was to tell him honestly, I cannot remember and that I would take the rap (which is just verbal warning) on behalf of my "accuser". Later in the day, evidence surfaced which suggests a possibility that I was actually innocent .. . . . arghhhh . ..

Sometimes I wonder, is it my memory poor, or is it just because I don't give a flying f*ck . . . . . but then again, how could I have been so ignorant and negligent ?? Like 60- 70% of the time/ memories !! I'm actually beginning to believe that this is the case ....

I'll keep my friends and myself in prayer ....

P.S. Mass @ BSC was like awesome lar .... as in I've been wanting to attend mass for sometime now, then I got invited RANDOMLY . . . guess its one of God's wonders . .. . read my mind then make the thing happen . .. .

Like the room filled with toys and a crib created by heart broken parent's for a child that never came .. . . my room is filled with Tiger's collar, food, litter and happy memories . . .

The week was busy, BUT all the work kept me from thinking of other stuffs, so - it's cool X3 ! Just can't wait for my remaining 2 working days before I head off to SPAINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN (where Vicky Barcelona used the Leica M6 hehehe)


Last night we had teh TB22 gathering, apparently RG doesn't believe in out friendship anymore cause he MISSED it for the 2nd time despite all the warnings, and his reason was because my place was TOO far ... zzz

SJH's bike was like TOTALLY OVERLY Ah Ah Sia !

same feeling same month different year...the NP yr1 thingy is here again "-_-

The last 2 days in office was like freaking HEAVEN . .. . cause - NO GAHMEN haha...
FSM OC SSG all on leave or not in camp sia ...
The whole place was run by NSFs .. ..

Did my duty on Thursday,slept @ 3am [I was like talking on the phone for SUPER long] and woke up @ 6am to send the BOS to Joo Koon MRT for his usual shuttle bus service management, which I then sped back to camp and tucked myself in nicely ... only to be awaken like EVERY HOUR ... . . I actually cannot exactly remember who woke me up, but they were asking the usual questions (what vehicle to use, this guy take off etc. etc. etc.) and including once to take the "precious" breakfast ration into the bunk , cause leaving it in the office will lead to comsuption by other colleagues.

My day began at 10+am (like damn heng OC did not come in today lar ... cause he seems quite particular about having someone at the detailing desk at all times). I finished the detail sheet by 12pm and sent the necessary daily updates to the usual people (whom I honestly believe mostly don't look at them in any great detail), and waited for TDS n*gger's (one of our "loyal customers" aka ALWAYS give us work to do ...) to give us more details on one of their details (haha i like the sound of that). Like freaking you want to indent our vehicles then you don't give clear instructions.

At about 2pm, the highlight of my day began - AhLoy's pickup broke down IN THE MIDDLE of a yellow box on Gul Road hahaha !!!! I sent down a mechanic with a powerpack to jump start the vehicle, but it was in vain and in the end we left AhLoy with his broken down vehicle to the tow services. The road was like jammed up pretty good (estimate up to 10 vehicle incl. trailer length !!!) I remembered texting "HAHAHA You're Stuck !!" before heading out.

I'm off to duty again in an hour ... this time without any sleep, whoever falls sick and needs to visit the MO, BECAREFUL hehehehe... The freaking guy whom I sent to PLC last week at freaking 10/11PM saw me at the canteen this afternoon and he gave me the weakest smile ever ... (I can still vividly remember him justifying his "Im on leave tomorrow, I report sick but never ask for MC" .....) Then again, I was at JP last week and I saw a "customer" from camp who had ORDed . .. . nice to know that once in awhile, we are considered as "friends" and not just "another driver". If all goes well, I'm gonna sleep in all day and watch my Youtube videos . .. hoping that time will pass me by quickly !!!!! Atleast tomorrow there's carrot and another random driver staying over with me till 5pm :D

still so excited to go back to school but like DAMN LONG more lar...

After a humiliating defeat of 68mins at the 10km Standchart Marathon, I still had the nerves to collect the FINISHING medal (aka medal of participation .... ). Apparently clem didn't do as well either though his standard of "I was disappointed at the results" may actually be my "I'm doing fine", given his track record (literally and metaphorically). Like Seetoh says, neh mind neh mind up to you(me) [whilst doing the freaking corny actions], I'll most likely take part in the next one.

I forgot his name, but the haunting words of the NSMen which I spoke to is coming back to me, something regarding not being over confident (which I am), as he was trying to warn me against commiting the same mistake as he did (epic fail in the previous marathon, then next year try to make a come back).... should have followed the words of this "lao jiao bing" and trained with him. (he did hint me several times "I always run past your house but never see you, when you gonna come out). But of those several times he ran past, something else such as MW2 or hanging with friends or sleeping or etc etc etc PROCRASTINATING (even blaming the rain) got the better of me. hahaha.. ok I shall stop beating myself .

Was at Shi Tu Wei Xiong's place yesterday and we played board games from like 2+3pm till 7 (started @ 10am actually but I decided to go back office to see my comrades in steering wheels), taking a 2hour break for dinner. Actually it was quite short cause I only managed to play one roudn of battleship and Cashflow. At 845pm, I was about to return back from dinner, when I was confronted with this question "the thing ends at 10, so is it worth my while returning, cause ill probably reach back at 9+". But I decided to go back, which I in accordance to one of my personal doctrines which I picked up from SAF. I goes something along this line (dun be lazy lar, just go and try out, you never know what awaits you).

I've actually followed this a couple of times, and it has always brought me satisfaction, like the time when I went to meet Khaw Clem and Ed at Bugis for coffee, even though I knew I would probably only be able to meet them for like 1hour or so then leave. Then there is the Thai Disco with the STOs, and when I purposely signed up for the Standchart (clem as some convincing effect though, like when he "convinced" khaw to go for the bike race). And more recently, yesterday, when I actually realised it was worth it, because there was actually a surprise BDae celebration for 3 people from 2E !!! Imagine all the fun and cake I would have missed :P

Also, got a friend leaving for thailand to build houses and teach children etc. I'm actually really excited for my turn, as this is probably going to be the closest I get to doing "humanitarian work with UNICEF". I mean its NOT with UNICEF, but UNICEF has kind of been one of my "try out everything" goals in life, I'd love to set up a camp somewhere in Africa giving HIV jabs and treating kids/ people. But then again, that ofcourse takes up a whole lot of commitment which I do not believe I'm prepared for. In which case, I'm gonna stick to the OCIP trips offered by SMU :)

AHHHHH tomorrow got to go back to work .... .zzz I'm sad but yet happy too . .. . cannot explain the mixed emos ... lucky I got friends over there, can't believe what it would be like if I had to go through the whole remaining time living like BMT EVERY FREAKING DAY. . . (and I dun mean staying in, I mean the feeling of sianness and not having REAL friends in camp, accompanied by the occasional backstabbing here and there to compete for slots in command school..... which is like a waste of time. Now thinking about it ... why slog and torment, stay in 24/6 just for the rank ... when you can relac one corner, book out EVERYDAY and enjoy life with CIVILIAN friends. Peanut and Crabs advice was really true, glad I got into the unit I got into ....

The week started off with a DUTY on Sunday 29th November. Came into camp at 9am, was activated to send a patient to the medical centre at 1115am . .. . for - STOMACHACHE . . . I was like thinking to myself (lucky he got rank . . . cannot scold him) but I made his life a "miserable" as possible by making him wait till the medics begin to call me on the office phone while I read the New Paper article on Ms Lo and the Mumbai shootings while drinking the free red packet SAF 3 in 1 coffee. Afterward's, I made them wait in the AIRCONLESS minibus while I chatted up with my TDS friend on the pretence of looking for someone to sign my log book. (you may think that I'm just wasting my own time in the end, but anything to make their journey to the medical centre as painfully boring as possible, I will do).

I think the army should actually thank me, cause I am discouraging people from malingering. This was accompanied by my "modified" style of driving, and my "f" face expression throughout the entire trip. Ofcourse I made it a point to ask his buddy (LTA) to come out of the vehicle and guide me while I reverse (though I dun bother to look at him when I do so) and I dropped them at the back entrance carpark rather then the main entrance (I don't know the place ah sir ... never come here before ... standard act blur live longer sh*t).

How did I come to the conclusion that he was malingering ? Most of them generally are, cause if its really serious, the ambulance in camp would have been activated (and it would me my colleague and not me who would drive). Then ofcourse, there was also the "stomachache" reason, which is crap lar... even I have had stomachaches incamp before, but what did I do ? Just suck it up and stay in the toilet more often and drink more water lar ... on my previous duty, last tuesday, the patient was even worse. . . I dunno if he was a chao recruit or private. Got the balls to tell me summore (I never keng lar, I even told the doc not to gimme MC, cause tomorrow I on leave). i'm thinking "f'ing hell, if you on leave tomorrow, your stomachache cannot freaking wait till tomorrow ah ?! must activate me at 11pm to send you out... "

Anyways, its been a great week, cause there was no duty other then the sunday one, and clem decided not to take off on wed and thurs (though he should lar . . so i belief). Migraine plagued me again on my sunday duty (I vomited 4 times in camp... but did I activate the ambulance driver ? NO!) On thursday too, I got migraine again, but this time I was prepared with panadol extra. I was actually supposed to drive to the petrol station (about 7km away) to top up, but clem saw me poppin' pills and told me not to. Initially I was all cool about it, saying I can do it (AND I CAN), but when I was vcomming prawns to the station, I was actually glad that I was not driving (nodoubt I would not crash the vehicle and all, but it would not be an enjoyable drive lar. . . no sense in making myself suffer for no reason).

I went to CHOMP CHOMP! on thursday night too !!! I dunno if the others knew it, but it was freaking enjoyable for me lar, cause it was like something different in a long time.. . . it broke the "west area" routine (particularly JP) .

I can't wait for the 10KM run on sunday sia . . . hope it will be as enjoyable as AHM :)