still so excited to go back to school but like DAMN LONG more lar...

After a humiliating defeat of 68mins at the 10km Standchart Marathon, I still had the nerves to collect the FINISHING medal (aka medal of participation .... ). Apparently clem didn't do as well either though his standard of "I was disappointed at the results" may actually be my "I'm doing fine", given his track record (literally and metaphorically). Like Seetoh says, neh mind neh mind up to you(me) [whilst doing the freaking corny actions], I'll most likely take part in the next one.

I forgot his name, but the haunting words of the NSMen which I spoke to is coming back to me, something regarding not being over confident (which I am), as he was trying to warn me against commiting the same mistake as he did (epic fail in the previous marathon, then next year try to make a come back).... should have followed the words of this "lao jiao bing" and trained with him. (he did hint me several times "I always run past your house but never see you, when you gonna come out). But of those several times he ran past, something else such as MW2 or hanging with friends or sleeping or etc etc etc PROCRASTINATING (even blaming the rain) got the better of me. hahaha.. ok I shall stop beating myself .

Was at Shi Tu Wei Xiong's place yesterday and we played board games from like 2+3pm till 7 (started @ 10am actually but I decided to go back office to see my comrades in steering wheels), taking a 2hour break for dinner. Actually it was quite short cause I only managed to play one roudn of battleship and Cashflow. At 845pm, I was about to return back from dinner, when I was confronted with this question "the thing ends at 10, so is it worth my while returning, cause ill probably reach back at 9+". But I decided to go back, which I in accordance to one of my personal doctrines which I picked up from SAF. I goes something along this line (dun be lazy lar, just go and try out, you never know what awaits you).

I've actually followed this a couple of times, and it has always brought me satisfaction, like the time when I went to meet Khaw Clem and Ed at Bugis for coffee, even though I knew I would probably only be able to meet them for like 1hour or so then leave. Then there is the Thai Disco with the STOs, and when I purposely signed up for the Standchart (clem as some convincing effect though, like when he "convinced" khaw to go for the bike race). And more recently, yesterday, when I actually realised it was worth it, because there was actually a surprise BDae celebration for 3 people from 2E !!! Imagine all the fun and cake I would have missed :P

Also, got a friend leaving for thailand to build houses and teach children etc. I'm actually really excited for my turn, as this is probably going to be the closest I get to doing "humanitarian work with UNICEF". I mean its NOT with UNICEF, but UNICEF has kind of been one of my "try out everything" goals in life, I'd love to set up a camp somewhere in Africa giving HIV jabs and treating kids/ people. But then again, that ofcourse takes up a whole lot of commitment which I do not believe I'm prepared for. In which case, I'm gonna stick to the OCIP trips offered by SMU :)

AHHHHH tomorrow got to go back to work .... .zzz I'm sad but yet happy too . .. . cannot explain the mixed emos ... lucky I got friends over there, can't believe what it would be like if I had to go through the whole remaining time living like BMT EVERY FREAKING DAY. . . (and I dun mean staying in, I mean the feeling of sianness and not having REAL friends in camp, accompanied by the occasional backstabbing here and there to compete for slots in command school..... which is like a waste of time. Now thinking about it ... why slog and torment, stay in 24/6 just for the rank ... when you can relac one corner, book out EVERYDAY and enjoy life with CIVILIAN friends. Peanut and Crabs advice was really true, glad I got into the unit I got into ....