be a nice person, and people eventually climb onto your head.

put all the eggs in one basket and you lose everything.

these are the lessons learnt the hard way.

(be a slacker and your monthy assessment wouldn't turn out too good :P hehehehe) ......

I've been distracted in late, deviating from my objectives of this OIAP undertaking. A few hard knocks got me back on track, and I pray I stay on track.

I TOT I was my friend.....
everyday HONTONI remember to bring my wallet desu...
TODAY when I TOT I wanna go out .... 1X forget....

Miss Fortune really loves me I guess :P maybe we are destined to be together for all eternity...

My mind's brainstems are going pop pop pop.... a thousand sensations run through my head...

and the interim gawddammit!... hahas

Finally, the XIN SHUI has been fa'ed ! But ar..... i tot i was.... more thrifty (hahas u tot it was "my frend" right haha).

I checked the bank account today, and I felt a HELL lot richer, BUT also poorer, cause apparently, all that galavanting in Guang Zhou last weekend and in Xia Men in October did infact bleed my China Construction Bank (CCB hehe) account dry... now like got small pubbles of water left... till the company dumped in a pail of water :D now its a small lake hehehe.

If i spend the way I spent last month, I will never forgive myself.... but then with Meizu M8 (china's pirated IPhone) just around the corner, and RG tempting me with his brand new and shiney AND FREE iTouch, HOW CANNNN!!!!! Then there's this bugging problem of my HPhone not being able to sms in chinese (I guess only 3 people in the whole world will know why this is a problem for me... hahas...), which I want to just conveniently go into a ChinaMobile shop and solve that problem, which btw would also be the first HPhone i ever bought with my own $ :P

And my gawd I just can't get over the song 宁夏 !! its just such a hapy tune.... haiz hahas

Oh and weekend was great too, I went to the gym, and now my arms are feeling like crap, but i felt I did something good for myself.... and ohmy gawd.... the yoga was 1hr of pain and pleasure..

Haizzzzzzz ... tmr back to the usual office routine... board meetings... seminars... strategy session on thursday (like thanks lor... u like to push the shit till jsut b4 the weekends...) ... but why am i not stressed?????? CAUSE I AM JUST THE AUDIENCE to all this hahas, see all my colleagues cry no tears while I relac one corner and try to absorb as much info as I can... most of the week will be spent doing that company intro and my rounds at the factory ground ofcourse.....

But that's life.. and that's the path I took... no thanks to Ngee Ann introducing Psychology only when I was in Year 3... I thought I was its frend.... hahas

nothing makes sense sometimes..

the right from the wrong

the moral from the immoral

what are ethics?

im on this highway to hell and i really wanna get out.

just for now, I can offer my apology

though it will probably never reach its true target nor achieve its real meaning, atleast deep inside, I know then somewhere and somehow, apart of me is still human

Ken Ken

p.s to whom it may concern : thanks for the sense talk.

spent the weekend with my uncle and dad over at GuangZhou. But I will post later when I get the photos up.

Right now, I'de like to talk about fishing.
Its such a wonderous activity. It challenges your stamina, patience and level of preparation.

Fishing ivolves 5 steps

1. Finding the pond (medium in which to fish)
2. Preparing the rod, line and bait (more on that later)
3. Casting (this is by far very important, as it is the first time your bait and line comes in contact with the medium and or fish. Like they say, first impression counts, any firsts are important)
4. Reeling in the fish (not simple, alot of skill and tact is required here)
5. Unhooking the fish and cooking it (can screw up at the very last moment)

1 - This is by far, one of the most simplest steps. Obvious commonsense is at play here (if the fish in this pond is sickly, not to your liking, not at your skill level etc. avoid it, no point casting over and over agian for nothing. Ofcourse, one can always practice here, gain some field time. Practice makes perfect.) Observation is the key skill here. Patience not to rush into it, observe other fishermen or the fish available.

2 - Obviously important. The rod is basic, it is there to support the line, give you that extra reach/ edge, give you the ability to cast far. Rod's do not normally snap, but if you so choose to, you can obtain a good one. The reel/line is crucial, it is the only connection you have between the fish and urself. Insufficient preparation here (too thin a line [snaps if the fish fights strong/ is heavy], too thick a line will be visible to the fish, and lessen's the chance of the fish taking the bait. (though I guess now materials engineering has made more and more transparent thick lines). The bait is again OBVIOUSLY important. It is meant to attract the fish and entice it to bite. Too weak, and the fish doesn't smell/ see it. Too strong or pungent, the fish sees through your bullshit and doesn't bite. The bait will be the determining factor as to whether or not is game on!

3 - Why I said it is important? Many times, I over zealously cast the rod, which led to either the bait being destroyed, the fish being scared away or the bait being lost hehe...

4 - Ok, the fish has taken the bait, 1 of 2 things can happen. The fish releases the filthy bait, as the hook failed to do its job (meaning ur bait failed). OR its game on. Skillful fishermen can feel the moment the fish bites. Jerking the bait a little ensures success in hooking up the fish. The fish is hooked and it begins to fight back. This is by far the most fun part of the game. The fish, most of the time, does not know WTF is happening, it just basically feels pain and struggles or it continues to swim without a clue (blur f**k hahas..). Whatever it is, the line will get pulled to its tension sooner or later. Skillful fishermen know when to release the tension, and when to pull (sort of like 1 step back, 2 steps forward). If your line was too short, it snaps.. too thin, it snaps.. too thick (your gamble paid off, it doesn't snap :P)

5 - So, now you have got the fish out of the water, it has somewhat resigned to its fate, but if u slack now and let down your guard, u risk having i slip out of your hands and jumping back into the water (well done son...) Ive even read of cases when the fish managed to slap the fisherman and injure him (with knives and hooks around, one flick of its tail at the right time,place and angle can mean certain injury).

Once you have unhooked your fish, congratulations, grill it in any way you like... but dun overdo it again... or you end up eating crappy fish.

The 5 steps are required in each fishing process, but depending on skill level of each individual, time taken from selection to consumption may differ greatly :)

Ofcourse, noone is stopping you from casting multiple lines or from using multiple ponds!

What I blogged is somewhat factual.. just bored and all.. hahas random facts... but in all its randomness and crappiness, perhaps some of you may find it useful or comprehend its full potential.

Again, if you fail, keep casting and casting. Time will come when you succeed :)

She can kill with a smile,

she can wound with her eyes

She can ruin your faith with her casual lies

And she only reveals what she wants you to see

She hides like a child,

She can ask for the truth, but she'll never believe

And she'll take what you give her as long it's free

she never gives out

And she never gives in, she just changes her mind

And she'll promise you more than the garden of Eden

Then she'll carelessly cut you and laugh while you're bleeding

But she'll bring out the best and the worst you can be

She's frequently kind and she's suddenly cruel

She's all that but she's always a woman to me :)

ramblings.... ignore this post...

Its pretty amazing how quickly the tides of change come about, how subtly Lady Luck makes herself scarce, and how Miss Fortune can discretely but quickly charms her way into our lives. My mum once told me, that if you trip at the entrance of a store, venture out of it and refrain from conducting business within its confines. Today, this phrase which has been etched into my mind (one of the many lessons a parent passes down to the child and the child to his own child) comes back to mock me.

I would have never known that when I tripped at the entrance of the store in this country and was taught that very lesson, it would lay buried deep in the recesses of my mind only to resurface at this very same location today to spit on my face.

Ok. Enough with the pleasantries, I will get straight to what is digging at my neck and sucking the life blood out of me.... slowly but surely....

The trip to this place... I never liked it from the very beginning... not only did it bring back the many memories of my lonely and boring desk job when I was here slightly over a year ago, it meant leaving behind a sort of new found happiness I was given earlier on. Aside from that, there was the incident during the registration for this trip, which I may consider my trip on the door step of this trip. Back then I was still able to walk away from this place, but perhaps curiosity and stubborn pride let me back here.

And here I was again. I came here with discontent, anger, sorrow, hate, pity, pride, and many more feelings and preset conceptions I had for this place, but all this changed. It seemed that I quite enjoyed it here after all, infact I once thought to myself, how did I condition my mind to think the way it did in the first few days of this trip. However, just as there is white and then there is black, and there's good and there's evil, and left and right. JUST when I was getting on well with things, some guy OR SOMETHING has the nasty habit of FUCKING it all up for you. "Fucking it all up" logically speaking now, is a gross overstatement, but that's just how I feel now.

Anyways... everything on this front seems fine, but there's just this situation/ problem now in my life that's bugging away at me..... I guess if life was a bed of roses, there'de be no reason to live right? I'll strongly stand up and face this problem. Sadly, my key witness has been rendered useless..... but I guess that's just the way things are - the more upper the ladder you go, the harder your problems.... makes me wonder sometimes, whether the happier people are really the bosses or the peasants....

To Whom It May Concern - FUCK you! Told you many times this problem would surface, but you never did shit about it... and I thought you were my friend.... (this time I mean it... of the countless times I've used this phrase....)

Ah, so I visited Tang Quan over the weekends with my colleague. Tang Quan is basically a place that is made up of several mountains, hills, valleys and hot spring. The last time I went in, I did not know WHERE the **** to go, so I went back home. This time, I decided that I was gonna climb one of em mountains NOT matter WHAT! (sort of like the Allies, who were crossing the Rhine "Operation Market Garden was a disaster, but this time, bridge or no bridge, we would be going to Germany").
Ok, so at the entrance.... I know, I look like I'm "damn" interested hahas... but I really am :P

YEa... I got a colleague who has this urge to take "sneak" photos of me... (remember the box and office moving post ... hahas)On the way up, we saw this FAT FUCK. It was freaking like the size of your thumb....really wanted to squish it and see all its guts and gunk spill out hehehe. But the better side of me prevailed.

On the way up, we took a wrong road... looks like in the middle of nowhere eh hahas. This road led to someone's house with like 4 vicious dogs which kept barking at us. (those buggers dunno what their up against eh... duns they know humans eat dog meat in this land!) The owners came out, but the lead black dog was guai lan enuf to follow us as we walked off.

Nice lake (wonder if the water is drinkable... ofcourse not though, but tempting, can see fish inside?) I actually made it across by stepping of the trail of rocks hehe.

er.. what more can I say about the chinese... life is cheap here..... yea..
On the way to the top! Many views of this, looks good for rafting? hehe
And there we go! On the top! where there was a water pumping station... lol..
This night was better, we ate at this taiwanese place which sold SEXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX desserts! My god, the Taro Milk Ice was - TO LIVE for..... oh I ate this for a change, somewhat what dad ate at XiaMen last time.
A little night "treat" for ourself just before the sexxxxxxxx dessert, we shared a plate of beef hor fun (which was god awful oily) but very tastey nonetheless (we had not eaten any lunch on the mountain. We also ate steamboat! This time, 2 others had joined in.

japalang kuching kolo mee pok char kway tiao oh jian KFC

First you tell me liddis, then later you tell me liddat... ... MAKE UP YOUR MIND! ... And I thought you were my friend...

Don't worry, I believe in 3 strikes and you're out. You're only at strike one ......