I have been trying to discover myself these week (waaaaaahhhhhh round of applause....)

I THINK I have a few flaws..

1. I'm impatient (not till you know me well will you see my impatient'ness)

2. I have commitment issues (cause I like to play it safe mostly. But if i say I will meet you, I most likely will unless something cropped up which is more impt. than YOU) Ofcourse, one issue on the commitment issue part is that I am forgetful, so I do forget our plans sometimes... ... and end up committing to a plan above our plan....

3. I am not a real good liar (but consider this carefully, maybe I'm lying to you now, making you lower your guard against me so that I can lie to you later :D hehe which means the opposite. Don't take every word at word value)

4. I do not have REAL life goals (i mean, up until now, my life goal SERIOUSLY was to study hard, get a good paying job, support my family, better still if my wife can choose whether or not to work. You know, that typical cliche AMERICAN DREAM kinda thing) But then, is that REALLY my real life goal??? I think most guys have that intention? But importantly, when someone actually asked me if that was my driving force behind what I do, i could not look at the person with a straight face and say a simple " YES". . . I guess we are all selfish people, and perhaps my life goal was too presumptious (that i will have a wife and kids, and therefore now i am working solely for someone/ people that may never materialise?) [parents is not counted.. tts like basic manners/ filial piety. And at the rate their going versus my studies, I may embarrassingly need them to look after me....]
Perhaps I just need more serious/ visionable goals like make my million by which age, or get my MRS manual drive by which age (WITHOUT help from dad).

5. I need closure (if you want to attack me on this, its real simple). I may act all cool and shit, but it destroys me inside when something doesn't go well and is left hanging [particularly with regards to social interactions, bgr, frendship, work, family etc.] I just can't sleep properly if I care about something/someone and I do not know the next step/ feeling to expect when I next meet/ approach the situation. It really tears me up sometimes ... (this is when my don't give a fuck attitude can be removed from studies and applied here)

6. I can be rather selfish (to a point that if I can't have something, noone else must have it), depending on what is at stakes (than again, this is not a valid weakness, cause anyone, depending on what is at stakes can be as selfish as i am, selfishness is relative...)

7. I have always been PROMPT for meetings or going 15mins earlier (thnx to the valuable lesson from Miss Yip Yuan Cum). But of late, from influence from SOMEONE and some other people from school... that habit is beginning to die down... AND BY GAWD I HATE it when people are late and do not notify me. Really, I may like relac one corner, but it affects my view on you badly [but then if its a constant thing... I guess i'm used to it].

If there is one thing I learnt in China, which I guess was one of the BEST lessons, is that "nice guys finish last" (sometimes you need to experience it for yourself before you believe it *winks*)

LAST but not least, i am still processing the CHIPS photos so paiseh, my daytime job... leaves me little time (AFTER I've had my dinner, movie games etc.) to do photography.... will do it ASAP. It's a pretty big file cause I shot it on RAW, so it will take effort and monotonous work to compress all the photos :P